I keep running my fingers across my face. There is a bump on the bottom of my chin that is swollen and painful to the touch. I know this kinda of pain. It’s pain from the pressure built up underneath. I just want it gone. I want it out. Whatever is in there, shouldn’t be.

Every few weeks or so I’ll get this type of reaction in my skin. It’s the worst kind for me because I constantly feel the raised skin that is out of place. I want it to be smooth again, to release the pressure, and to ease the pain.

You may think that’s a lot of thoughts to dedicate to one bump on my face and I would tell you that you’re not wrong. Most people are not fixated on the imperfections within their skin. Yet here I am. Thank you dermatillomania.

I’ve been unkind to my skin for as long as I can remember. If I could just fix it…if my skin was smooth, there would be nothing to pick at. At lest, that’s what I tell myself.

Today it’s my face. Tomorrow my chest. The next day my legs. And on it goes.

Day 1

Welcome all! This is probably my third attempt at a blog and I’m really hoping this one will stick! It’s a major problem I have; remembering to write. At this point it’s more along the lines of, remember that I created a blog in the first place. I promise I’m working on that. Probably a side effect of my thyroid kicking its own ass…but a story for another day 😉

I hope to create content that you actually enjoy reading. I hope to connect and share experiences and messages that resonate with others. I can’t promise anything but I am going to try. I will be real, raw, and un-apologetically me! That much I know.

I also want to know about you. What do you love..hate…and everywhere in between. Let’s talk. Let’s get into healthy discussions. Let me know what you want to hear about and read. This only works if we’re both involved.

I used “Derma Warrior” as the title for this blog space. I want to share some of my highs and lows as a fat chica living with Dermatillomania (among a plethora of other random topics). Since compulsive skin picking is still a topic that most don’t speak on, I always lead with that. However, I don’t want to keep my topics narrow. I want to go in!

This wont just be a niche blog. I want to get my thoughts out there and get your feedback! I want to talk about bodies, health, relationships, and the world around us. Some days I’ll have serious topics and other days I may just rant to get something off of my chest. There is no wrong way to do this. I welcome you all and I’m excited for this journey!!